Dragon Age: Inquisition

I really like this game. This game is single-handedly responsible for my purchase of an Xbox One over the PS4. I don't know that it's not available for PS4 but I knew it was available for Xbox One for months before it was released. That and Final Fantasy XV will be released on Xbox One.

GYM

Dad's there now I imagine and it's past time I went back. Gonna work these musk-els. Tickets to the gun show or to the zoo to see the pythons and various other idioms regarding arm size. Chris Pratt is my current fitness role model. To go from tubby Andy Dwyer to Peter Quill...nice.

Disposable Income

I have almost none of it. Some of what I do have goes towards lottery tickets because at this point in my life I feel that a longshot is my best bet for acquiring the money I want without resorting to illegal activities. Money is the root of all evil. Not true. The LOVE of money is the root of all evil. When you will do anything to gain more money, then you are contributing to all evil. If the safety of your employees is secondary to your profits, that's evil. If rent or food comes after lottery tickets, that's...hmmm, well, probably the start of a slide into a situation where evil might come, where it perhaps would not if the bills had been paid first.

Anyway, there's a saying, "hope springs eternal," and I'm hoping that I'll one day win that lottery. I'm reminded of another adage, "if you don't work, you don't eat," well, I'd like to have enough money one day to be like these wealthy individuals who let their money work for them.

I guess it all comes down to the fact that I want to do what I want to do, and what I don't want to do is work.

I want a life of leisure. I want a life of ease. I want to turn my back on the world and do whatever I please. I do not need or want a life of profligacy, enough to indulge most of my whims sounds about right to me.

Proposal

So I put in a proposal at work today. Said proposal was that they consider making the below designs as Red Cell exclusive t-shirts. We're not currently actively recruiting red cell donors but I expect that will change and these designs may generate interest in donors that might not otherwise consider donating red cells. Conversion tool!

You'll be loved, you'll be loved

like you never have known⁽¹⁾.

I want to believe this.

I think I want my memories of her to become a series of blurs like she never occurred but, I doubt that will happen. I say I think because I still hold on to a foolish hope that someday she will either realize how I feel about her or if she is already aware, that she might reciprocate.
It's rough for me because it seems I initiate all contact. I'm never asked how my life is but I ask her. I'm interested in her life but she shows no interest in mine. They say the opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference⁽²⁾. Writing this, seeing it on the screen gives no comfort but it does provide epiphany. Unless I ask her in a straightforward manner her feelings toward me, I will have to live with the almost certainty that she has none. It's the "almost" that is at the same time agonizing and a source of hope. I would not soon see that hope dashed, even if it means the agony.

I've spent roughly half of my expected years on the Earth⁽³⁾ and I still don't know how to deal with feelings like an adult.

(1)Someday You Will Be Loved Death Cab for Cutie
(2)Elie Wiesel
(3)Psalms 90:10

When Captain America throws his mighty Shield

All those who chose to oppose his shield must yield. If he's lead to a fight and a duel is due, then the red and the white and the blue will come through, when Captain America throws his mighty shield!
This should have been posted after I watched The Winter Solider back in April. Soon rectified.